The exact date I made the first step into becoming a Christian: May 10th, 2008. I went to a play held by a local church. There's details on what happened in the post. :) The day I became fully Christian: May 12, 2008. That's the day I'm speaking about most in this entry.
A little background: Before finding Him, I was Pagan. So that's why I mention Paganism in the post. Hope it doesn't bother anybody. :)
So, starting about a month ago, I've been on the fence about whether or not to become Christian once again, or to stay Pagan. I started thinking, "You know what, I say 'God' and 'Lord' a lot, and even say Thank God a lot, and such. Maybe I'm supposed to be Christian?" I talked about it with lizziey and she said something like "Well, what does your HEART say?" it's taken me a while to really find out what my heart said, and well now I know.
At the end of the play Saturday night, May 10th, a woman that's on the Church Staff came up and talked about the play, and did 3 prayers. Well, you were to pray with whichever prayer applied to you. I prayed with the one that was for those that aren't Christians but want to be, and made my first step in becoming Christian again. Yesterday morning, I talked to Lizziey more about it. I also prayed the Sinners' Prayer by myself. Me and Lizziey talked for a bit about things I should do, or try to do at least in order to be a good Christian. I'll never be as good a Christian as Lizziey, no matter how hard I try, regardless I will be as good a Christian as possible for me. While talking to Lizziey, I typed in all caps "I DONT KNOW HOW TO PRAY RIGHT!!!" and then I instantly started crying, and repeatedly saying "Please God, help me..." and then just started rambling to God, asking Him for help in various things I needed help with. I was just bawling and rambling, and bawling, and rambling. I didn't stop crying even after ending the prayer, I didn't stop for at least an hour or so. When I mentioned to Lizziey that I immediately started crying and begging for help, she was just like "Learned how to pray did ya?" lol yeah, I did. Ever since then, it seems like I immediately became really religious, and like I immediately became as good a Christian as I could be.
Since yesterday, May 12, it seems to me that I'm almost always praying. Every time I turn around I'm praying for something. I haven't said GD (even though that used to be a word I used often), except for about 30 minutes ago I accidentally blurted it out. I didn't mean to, it just came out. I instantly prayed and apologized and asked for forgiveness. It's a strange feeling, having become Christian after so long being Pagan. But, you know what? I'm happier than I've been in a long time. I have a sense of peace now, knowing that I have somebody that even when I can't trust anybody else, even when I don't have anybody else to turn to, I can always turn to Him. He'll always be there for me, even in times when nobody else will be. I find a lot of peace and solace in that, and I'm glad I made the decision to become Christian again.
I have a lot of joy in finding the Lord, and in finding Christ. Joy in finding a friend for life, in finding somebody that will never leave my side. If for whatever reason I stray from the path, He will still be there to welcome me back into His arms whenever I'm ready to return. I'm happy in that I found Him, and in that I know that His love is the ultimate love and He will always love me and be there. I am extremely happy about my choice, and I don't think I could ever be happier with a religion! I LOVE God and Christ, and I love what they did for us and I'm extremely grateful to them and will be eternally so!!!
x-posted to mere_christian and club_christian